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Monday, April 20, 2009

Well, Today Was Uneventful

I hate those people who think they're too good for particular things, or particular people. I think the most common one I know of is the "I'm too cool for myspace" kinda thing, as if it makes them a better person for not having myspace. 

And then there's just the general "I'm too good for you". That really pisses me off. 

But anyway, today was silent all over the internet, and in real life... of course.

Has everyone already given up on the internet already? Has everyone already abandoned all sources of my entertainment?

I think it's time I move away from the internet, so I can avoid that constant rejection I face everyday when I boot up Chrome, check every subscription and feel incredibly let down as each sub never fails to disappoint.

*sigh*. 

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Saturday, April 18, 2009

How Do the Popular Kids Do It?

lol - as soon as I let myself acknowledge that I like my life the way it is, life decides to take it all away from me. In other words, things fall apart infinitely faster than they "fall into place".

Voldemort and I broke up - laugh if you wish, 'cause I find it quite humourous as well - mainly 'cause we were boreeeed ('cause he was gaming 24/7 lol) so we didn't speak 1/4 as much as we used to. But yeh I've known him for ages and we had more fun when we were just friends :)

But yeh, this leads me to the point of this post: How do the popular kids do it??

On average, I would have to say that the popular kids get into at the very least 3 relationships a year. At the onset of my relationship, I knew it wasn't going to last very long. But even though I knew that (therefore, it wasn't an overly serious thing, I didn't throw myself entirely into it etc. etc.), I have to admit, I'm still a little bit lost as to what I should do with myself on the other side of it.

When I ask how the popular kids do it, I don't mean anything remotely similar to how they physically get into so many relationships, but rather how, even why they prepare themselves mentally for realtionships destined for certain doom. 

I wonder if they give a shit...

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Friday, April 17, 2009

So Apparently I'm Still Into The Children's Entertainment Industry

Apparently so.

I caught myself unconsciously singing to a song that ravaged my childhood as they replayed the Wiggles this afternoon. 

"Hands in the air, rockabye the bear.
Bear's now asleep - shh, shh, shh!
Bear's now asleep - shh, shh, shh..."

You've got to admit though, they did have some pretty flash special effects. In fact, I was surprised to discover it was an older video at all. I was instantly hit with a wave of nostalgia when I saw the "old Yellow Wiggle" (capitals are necessary, aren't they?) singing and dancing (I thought, Oh yay! Someone's raised him [Greg] from the hospital bed!), although I never really took a liking to him so I followed it with a snide comment something along the lines of him only being able to sing. 

Ok right so now I've caught myself looking at their FAQ page.  THIS IS SO TRAGIC. 

lol. One of the questions on their "about wiggles" section is, "Are the wiggles married and do they have children?", and everyone, even Sam (the newest member and previous 20yr old understudy to a 50yr old - for continuity purposes, of course) is at least married, while the martial status of Jeff (the purple wiggle) is "Single and with no children." I dunno. Maybe he's in more of a tragic situation than I am; a teen looking up The Wiggles and all.

Ohh and I've just realised that Wikipedia and the Wiggles site have a similar icon! Except Wikipdia tries to be all serious and crap but The Wiggles just tries to be all Big W.

Copy and pasted directly from the site:

What are The Wiggles' middle names?
Sam Wiggle Moran
Murray Wiggle Cook
Jeff Wiggle Fatt
Anthony Wiggle Field
Kill me already.
Oh, and just for the record, the blue wiggle [Anthony] was always my favourite.

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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Things Fall Into Place.

Wow. 

Now that I "stand outside" and have a look at my life now, I have to admit things really could not have worked out better for me and my friends. 

I'm really glad I left my previous school. There are so many nice things that wouldn't have happened if I didn't; I wouldn't be in QYO, I certainly wouldn't be going out with (lets say 'Voldemort' for the purposes of this blog) Voldemort, Angie wouldn't have the friends she has now, Angie wouldn't be in the situation she's in now (xD), not to mention some really cool/nerdy/athsma-inducing people I've met over the past 2 months. Oh right, and the educational opportunities. I can never seem to remember that. I still get to go to Europe, I still get to visit JPC every week, which is strangely, even though it's the school I'm happy to have left, also one of the best parts of life at the moment as well.

Let me just take this opportunity to say that "I wouldn't be  going out with Voldemort" is possibly the coolest thing written on the internet, ever.

So right now, there are four main "groups" of people in my life right now: 
- Best friend. I never get to see you though, which is weird how this is all working out.
- Voldemort and Friend, 'cause Friend's pretty cool as well :)
- the class time boys - funniest group of kids ever. They always have me rolling on the floor in every class, whether it's because of their ability to pull of 'your mum' and 'that's what she said' jokes, or because they've drugged me. Either way it's quite enjoyable.
- the lunch time girls and co. - Not so funny but a great bunch of people to pass time with xD

It's in order of importance, I guess. Or maybe in order of how happy they make me. I don't know. I hate deeming the importance of people, although at the same time I would never say that they're equal. In a strange way, that would just be unfair. 

I guess this blog entry was really for my own purposes. Like a little snap shot of what I love about life right now. If this were lj, I'd turn off the comments and lock this post, but it's not so feel free to read and comment xD.

P.S.: Being home alone and blasting 'The Downeaster "Alexa"' through my speakers makes me very, very happy. At the moment, Storm Front would have to be my favourite albums, although my least favourite song. But, Sting and Anne Murray are so good right now. Queen is still brilliant, and Billy Joel doesn't even need to be mentioned. Except for the fact that I already have. Rahhhh! I love my music. 

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Sunday, April 12, 2009

Useless Ad on TeeFow/Fernsehen.

There's this ad on TV at the moment, advertising those metal screens you can get for your windows and doors. See that wouldn't be a problem at all, except for the fact their main selling point is that it "keeps the outside, outside." What it means is, say, if you have an abitrary tree branch that just happens to be growing on the side of house, and the breeze quite annoyingly makes the branch continually knock against the side of your door, you should buy their screens because they keep the branch out of your home.

NO. IT DOES NOT WORK LIKE THAT.

If a branch is constantly hitting your door and it annoys you, YOU DON'T BUY A FREAKING SCREEN to "keep it out". You freaking CUT IT DOWN. 

Ugh.

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Saturday, April 11, 2009

I Suck at the Whole First Person Thing.

I don't know if it's just me but whenever I pass a location at which I had some sort of memorable experience, I always see the memory from where I currently stand. In other words, I never see memories from a first person perspective, which is weird because at the time of the "occurence" I don't see anything that I see when I see...

UGH. 

I need sleep.

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Friday, April 10, 2009

Nazi. + can't be bothered tagging.

Ugh, I have developed this awful habit of placing valuable (to me anyway) things like my ipod touch or my phone in my lap and just standing up with complete disregard. 

The results are... annoying to say the least.

Anyway, lately I've been having this craazy idea nagging at me constantly. So basically, imagine a civilisation in which, rather than earning punishment, people are confined until they earn freedom. Of course, the freedom isn't difficult to gain, nor is the "confinement" a constant oppression or anything - the people "inside" simply wouldn't benefit from any luxuries (like wallpaper, or walls in general lol), but any simple, worthy service to the community, for example, teaching or even hairdressing, would get you "out". 

To me, it would make the world a more intelligent, interesting and richer place to live. The motive for freedom is a big incentive to be useful at the very least. I guess it has that underlying "creating a pure race" shit but honestly, it makes much more sense to me than killing everyone else, and freedom isn't limited to just one race anyway (remember, things like creating entertainment [making video games, creating music] are considered services as well), so in essence, I win, and Hitler loses. 

Yeh, I realise that I haven't factored in like financial considerations and crap like that but wtv. I'M COOL AND NOT SELF INDULGENT AT ALL. 

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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Video Time Capsule.

Hmm. 

I think I want to make one. 

I don't know why. 

I think I'm running late with this idea though. Oh well. 

I realise that this is one of the primary functions of videos, but after all the vlogging I watch it certainly doesn't seem that way. 

Maybe a picture collage? I don't know. 

I probably won't anyway. 

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Monday, April 6, 2009

Sheeeeep

wooooooots. 

So I got most of my results back -  an A for every single one of my exams apart from German, but seriously, come on. 

*schnapschnaps*

So anyway, I was having an annoying bout of insomnia last night (it's becoming quite rare nowadays [I was staying up later than I should have though]), but it eventually became so much of an arse that I decided to count sheep. Now, usually I would just count numbers (eg. 1, 2, 3... without "visual aids", per say), but I had never actually counted sheep. The "daydream" was in colour (surprising, only in primary colours, green and brown), and I was imagining the sheep bouncing in from the outside of a fenced area as I counted. Why the sheep willingly jumped from freedom into my cage of mental torture, I would have no idea why. Anyway, what worried my most about my technique of sleep-inducing, was when I got to certain numbers, I began to physically (well, as much as possible in a imagination) *factorise* the number of sheep. 

For example - the number 20 would look like 5 groups of sheep in which they then divided themselves into the only possible prime number, 2. Of course, some numbers were more complex, but I really can't be bothered to relive MY WAKING NIGHTMARE. 

God it was horrible. I think it I uncosciously began doing that because I became frustrated with the fact that I couldn't possibly visualise 20 sheep, randomly scattered, without being able to keep track of each one and doubting my counting abilities. It's a scary prospect, huh? I know how you feel. 

Counting sheep? Never again. 

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Saturday, April 4, 2009

The Rainbow Connection

Dear Blogary,

This morning, I woke up and turned on the TV. On it, was the most beautiful song ever. 

The Rainbow Connection - It was originally sung by 'kermit the frog' in the opening to the muppet show, but the video of it is not anywhere to be found on the internet.

Some people have done really nice covers of it - I know of Sarah McLachlan's (I think her's is my favourite), Jason Mraz's (it's actually pretty decent. He's put in a bit of his own style, and it's quite within reason too), The Carpenters', whom I love dearly, The Dixie Chicks, and just other tidbit people who've done pretty great jobs of it too. 

I WANT THE ORIGINAL. 

TO THE CORPRATE COMPANIES - A DEAD MAN (Jim Henson - sorry, Jim) WON'T EARN ANY MONEY. oh right, but you will, you selfish bastards. LET US LISTEN TO A GREAT SONG FOR FREE. j

Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection. The lovers, the dreamers and me...

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Wednesday, April 1, 2009

With or Without You.

Do any of you ever ponder about the people you thought you'd die without, yet you live your life everday as if they may as well never have existed? The people who were the reason you woke up each morning just to see at school. People whom you'd spend every waking moment thinking about them/something related to them.

To be honest though, there have been so many people who were the very centres of my world at different points in my life. I would've done a double take in disbelief at the very mention of the fact that I would not ever see them again by the time I reach 14. I constantly question myself as to how exactly I am living without their influence, when they were once the very composition of my living.

How am I doing it? Why is it that now, I get up for an entirely different group of people, and I don't give a damn that my old friends aren't going to be there when I get to school? What thoughts have now replaced those once centred around particular people? Is it my place to say that there may not ever be a group of people that I will know for the rest of my life, or, quite bluntly, that there will never be anyone I will not be able to live without?

I know this is relatively harsh and cold, but it's reality. No, I am not suggesting that I haven't appreciated my friendships enough, or that I regret the downfalls of some of my relationships - things are the way things are, and I'm happy with the way things are. We can say from day to day "Best Friends Forever" or "I love you", but we cannot mask the fact that one day, we may not be with the same people, and that we will live without them, so enjoy it while it lasts.

To quote Tim Minchin's song for the Comedy Gala, "If I didn't have you, I would probably have someone else."

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i am

vivien, and i ask you to convince me of otherwise.

i'd like to be

a musician
a scientist
a thinker
a photographer
a time traveler
under the sea,
in an octopus' garden
in the shade.

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