Do any of you ever ponder about the people you thought you'd die without, yet you live your life everday as if they may as well never have existed? The people who were the reason you woke up each morning just to see at school. People whom you'd spend every waking moment thinking about them/something related to them.
To be honest though, there have been so many people who were the very centres of my world at different points in my life. I would've done a double take in disbelief at the very mention of the fact that I would not ever see them again by the time I reach 14. I constantly question myself as to how exactly I am living without their influence, when they were once the very composition of my living.
How am I doing it? Why is it that now, I get up for an entirely different group of people, and I don't give a damn that my old friends aren't going to be there when I get to school? What thoughts have now replaced those once centred around particular people? Is it my place to say that there may not ever be a group of people that I will know for the rest of my life, or, quite bluntly, that there will never be anyone I will not be able to live without?
I know this is relatively harsh and cold, but it's reality. No, I am not suggesting that I haven't appreciated my friendships enough, or that I regret the downfalls of some of my relationships - things are the way things are, and I'm happy with the way things are. We can say from day to day "Best Friends Forever" or "I love you", but we cannot mask the fact that one day, we may not be with the same people, and that we will live without them, so enjoy it while it lasts.
To quote Tim Minchin's song for the Comedy Gala, "If I didn't have you, I would probably have someone else."
Labels: fall, friends, life, people, scooters, vacation, with or without you, woah that's some deep shit
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Whoaz.
This week is epic. I've had this like, boot/survival camp for the past three days (Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday) and I have this Wind Symphony camp tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday.
I'm going to be so smashed when I get back to school next week. Not to mention, I have a 1500 word essay to write in a week.
Well, seeing as this is the only time I've been able to sit down and write to my blog since school resumed, I'll make it boring.
I've been pondering this subject for quite a long time now, but for some reason, I can't seem to mentally explain it very clearly. Basically, what I want to say is goes something along the lines of:
ihatepeople. justbecausemoviesendhappily, doesn'tmeantheirlivesendtherehappily. 'speciallywiththeteenflickswherethegirlandtheguyalwaysgettogetherintheend, imeansrlsy, asiftheywouldn'tbreakuplikeaweeklateranyway. eventheoneswherethepeoplegetmarried. likethey'renotgonnagetadivorce. imeanliek, whenarrrewe?? GRRRSH.I hope it was easy to understand that.
Updates:
- I rolled my ankle harharharhar. it was funpainful.
- Today, I bought sea monkies, long straws with umbrella's attached, + candles for Michelle's birthday - HAPSDAPS TO YOU mishmish. 14 - the sum of which is no divisible by 3, 4, 5 or 6. I would know... I divisibility-tested them.
- I bought a sword for Max. Haven't seen you in aaaaages, and I figure the sword will probably serve you well in your acting career. :ppp
- The guys who work at National Geographic/any variation upon can all juggle, and are AWESOME. I have a general, specietic crush on you guys. snaps.
- I'm getting Richard a hamburger with a sugar-pearl love heart pressed into the bread for valentines. Take that, creativity!
- Callum, you have a job. I will take you down like a night arab in the night.
- :(((((( Brock. I miss you lots. Especially since my current mathematics teacher looks like a more janitor-like, old, sweaty, monotonous version of you. <3
- Vincent.
- Gibbo sucks and goes to toilet like a girl - in pairs.
WILL BE BACK SOON HOPEFULLY.
sheeya,
vvvvvvvvvvvvvv.
Labels: after, boys, camp, epic, friends, hamburger, lolz, movies, updative, valentines day
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